for what bliss am I searching...???

what do i want out of this life? for what bliss am i searching? how/where might these things be found?

love. first and last. i want love. i want to share my life with someone who loves me as i love them. who loves themselves and is a whole being independently of me. when i am around this person i want to feel like all the things i am are good and all the things i am not are ok too. I want to relish in my independence and have a place to fall when i am weak. i want a hand to lift me higher and a shoulder to cry on probably at least once a month. i want to be true to my word. i want to talk and process and discover. i want to know that as I fulfil my dreams all the joy i experience brings him joy as his will for me. i know this sounds ridiculously mushy but hey i am a woman and i mean what i say.

laughter. joy. games. i want to play. i want to play at home and with my friends and my brother and with my son. i want to read books and talk about them with kyle and build lego castles and ships and cities.children. I want to find my bliss in educating and surrounding myself by children. i know it is work and it will be hard but i have been dreaming of it since the fourth grade and i am so close. i want to pull my hair out in frustration because i don't know how to teach something and then discover that i did it. i want to see at least on "ah ha" moment in a child's eyes. i want to make math fun.

perfect and complete. i tattooed this on my wedding ring finger a year and a half ago when i married myself. I know my dreams are waking up. my intuition is blooming. my head is screaming with knowledge and the universe is always putting the most beautiful people in my path. but i am already complete. i want to share being complete. i want to give all my gifts away every day. i am living my bliss. being patient.