When I am this excited I feel so *urged* to call my friends, to talk about it, to bounce about it, to share and by talking I usually come to discover even more of what it is I am so excited about. I am only experimenting right now, I want to see if writing, and talking less brings me any clarity, maybe a different kind of clarity? I don't even know what to say, I suppose I would call my girlfriend and completely spill the entire conversation I just had with starlight.
First I got help severing all ties with Tim, we talked about how split he was and how he was two different people. She validated me that the Tim I fell in love with existed, but he was not in his body very often. We spoke of past lives. We spoke of this life. I cleared up more old stuff that relates to my father. AGAIN. when will that be over? And I began to process and learn how to be more open to my own gifts and practice using a language myself that supports me rather than continues to hide me.
I shared with her an experience I had with a man recently. I told this guy that I was an indigo. He didn't know what that was. honestly I didn't either, I had just been told that so I went with it. In any case he was threatened a bit and wondered if that meant I could read his mind or something. I told him that I am not telepathic and I don't read his mind. I just get visuals and feelings and I have learned that I only offer those if someone wants to hear it, but I don't know all of his deep dark secrets like some TV show!
Starlight told me to be careful of what I say and to be more honest. I am telepathic. But I have very clear boundaries. I am not keen to read thoughts, I can't even say I have ever done it. Probably because it isn't the thoughts that are so integral but the spirit. It is who you are that I see when I look at you. And if my seeing you helps you see you than I feel the beauty has happened. I want to practice seeing. I want to practice not editing the visual images that come into my mind.
I think I need to concentrate on a new mantra that the world is a safe place for me.
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Erin,
This is WAY more information than you gave me on the phone. It's interesting how when we talk you are excited in your tone of voice but these details... you left these out when we talked. There is a flow that happens in writing. You're doing beautifully. It's another way to move energy through you. :) I feel like I'm seeing a side of you that is more vulnerable.
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