Day 1.

No food. No cigarettes. No bread. No french fries or tatter tots. No chocolate. Just lemon juice, maple syrup and cayenne pepper. And I am bored. I should have a million things to do. I can sit here and list them out. I have several assignments to do for school. I have reading to catch up on. But all I can do is sit here and space out, and think, gee, I wish I had something to do and especially someone to talk to. I don't want to watch TV or play games. I don't even want to pick up the phone for my usual call to my girls. I want to be productive. I want to be a good student. Someone who gets her work done in advance and can relax and enjoy life and learn more from doing it because it isn't rushed. Why must I always wait until the last minute? And why is it that when I have a hunk of time - like right now - that I would rather sit and do *absolutely nothing*???? One little reflection, shit I don't even have to think that much, just blurb on about my feelings on a different web page other than this one.....jeez