new game called "not telling the other person what they should or should not be doing"

I had to learn that game a long time ago. Tim sucked. He was actually cruel. Nothing I ever did was good enough. I felt useless and as if no matter what I tried he would want the opposite anyway so what was the fucking point. It was funny that that exact expression had come from A when we dated about me. I don't have a vision of myself that way, but I was once. It made me remember how everything was so much about me that there was never time for anything to be about him. And when I was with Tim i realized that there was no me. only him. the world existed for his pleasure, fear, love, play, happiness and sadness. And if whatever was happening to me did not coincide with how he was feeling then there was something "really" wrong with me. after awhile you stop trying. i enjoyed the opportunity for reflection that it game me to see how I played that role to someone else. and i enjoy knowing that it won't happen like that again for me.